Out of the goodness of her heart, the birthmother wrote us a letter when Haven was born. These words are a gift, because it reminds me that this was not wasted time, but that God used us in her life. She talked about the security she had knowing that if she couldn't do it that Haven would be ok. She talked about the many answered prayers in her life and the new perspective we gave her. She ended it with, "I want you to know that my thoughts are with you, and Haven and I have felt your prayers". How can we argue with this? How can we argue with God's plan when the more important factor here is that a mother was held up in a time of need and she felt the work of effectual prayer.
A few months ago I posted a blog with Psalm 46:10 as the title... "Be still and know that I am God". This past week the sermon at my church was on Psalm 46. When the speaker spoke about verse ten, he said that the actual translation of "be still' is "let go of your grip". Honestly, I don't do well at being still. I don't even do well at going slow. And now I have the job of being still WITH my hands open to whatever comes. I can't hold onto Haven tightly, because it wasn't God's plan, but with openness we strive to let His will be done.
There will be more adoption news to share, of this I am absolutely sure. We just wait for God's next task.