One thing I am grateful for is the change I have felt in my own heart. This process has been long, but I find I am no longer anxious or afraid of a birthmother changing her mind. I know that it will go exactly as it should, and that God will use us in the birthmother's life either way.
When we were preparing for our meeting Tuesday, I bought the birthmother a gift and prayed over what I should say to her a in a letter. Braydon asked me if he could write to her as well. I thought he might forget about it, but the next day he asked again if he could write to her, ultimately sitting down to put his words on paper (and practice his cursive). I wasn't sure if his note would put too much pressure or make the birthmother uncomfortable (given the intensity of the emotions in adoption, I try to be as sensitive as possible). I checked with the social worker and she said it sounded ok to her. The social worker told us on Wednesday that she got a tearful, late night call from the birthmother. She was so touched that Braydon wrote to her. She found it incredibly thoughtful, and said she plans to write back to him. I find it so encouraging that God even uses our children as vessels of encouragement in this process, and I am very thankful for Braydon's persistence and thoughtfulness. God is in control, more than we often know.