About a month ago, a few friends of ours (who have been praying for us consistently) encouraged us to speak with our social worker. We also had some anonymous money given to us to put toward the adoption process. I have to say, these bits of motivation from others are so wonderful! This was especially true as we just entered our 15th month in the adoption process. Some days when I am discouraged, a friend or family member fills that void in a God-given way... so thank you to everyone who helps us and keeps up to date. It truly is a gift.
When I did contact our social worker, she said that our information has been viewed a few times. She said that it hasn't been the right fit or right timing yet, but we can be encouraged to know that it is getting out there. The New England states have our family book and information, so it could have been seen in any of those places. We also extended our information, through the Bethany website, to all of the U.S. We know that not every location would be easy for us to get to, but we want to faithfully consider what comes before us.
Last week our social worker asked us if we would consider a baby boy due in March. This baby has some disabilities, but we were not told how extensive. We took a day to pray, together and separate, and really think it over. Ironically it was the same day my sister-in-law, Hilary, had her ultrasound. Josiah, the boys and I were able to go to her appointment. I was feeling the baby itch for sure. As the day came to a close, Josiah and I talked again about this baby. Both of us felt that this really wasn't our child. Even though we really want to expand our family soon, we felt our answer was to wait. We told our social worker and she completely understood but thanked us for a sincere consideration. We could have asked for more information on the boy's condition, we talked to our pediatrician a little bit, but we didn't want to get too involved and then say no later. The whole day reminded me that this really has to be an endeavor that is lead by Christ. Both Josiah and I trust that we will know when the right situation is in front of us and that God will be navigating our family through the process. Hopefully that day is soon, but for now we will wait with our three beautiful sons. I recently read a quote that really helped me grasp this waiting in a new light:
"What God does in us while we wait is as important as what it is we're waiting for."
This has really reminded me that each day we are being prepared for whatever is to come.
(Picture from my cousin Becki's wedding this past weekend)